I’m the creator of myself
and the things
that happen to me.

I’ve come to meet my choice
I had a feeling it would end like this.
It was a certainty.

When the soul feels lonely
and it needs to be alone
and strong,
it chooses a disease
to change
to succeed

to tell me when I step the line
about to leave myself behind.

With a single blow I’ll get rid of everything
that prostituted me.

A man in the night with hearing vision
perceives and filters
every projection in play.

Role models
they exist in the structure
of my personality
and that of others,
it’s all lies.

He inspects images,
manoeuvres in the shadows,
parallel voices in endless crossroads
that furl the allegory
and conjure.

I hope for serenity.
If I prompt seriously will they grant me
the pledged stone?
I believe in being loyal to that we chose.

I make myself alive
poking another life while
our hero stitches his head
in silver ruby threads

Once an ideal is projected
in our collective imagination
you start building for it to happen

«What is this fluffy thing,
my feet?
The road is vast and out takes the eye.
To embrace reality takes patience
and skill
your power of will,
you don't get it just like death.

This is how you pull yourself to grow spiritually
very fast
Number 16 with a bullet *



* in David Diamond's Jim Morrison the last holy fool



- who can do self-interviews?

- everybody can do it

- me too?

- of course the self-interview helps a lot, it keeps you balanced. it is not a concept by me, it is a practise of many people. actually everybody does it all the time, we are always doing it and it does not mean you are crazy but there are times when you must come out of the mind, you understand? The most monstrous criminal lives in morals protected by his mind. Your own morals determine your own judgment and consequently your actions. If your mind says something is alright then your morals will accept it as alright. While there is mind there is morals.

- I think I understand. thought is judgment, judgments is morals and those are nothing but choices, determining what's good/bad/right/wrong according to relevance.

- exactly, and you judge what's relevant by your desire and your mind, according to what's best/right for you, or what you think it's best/right, even fair. it's always a duality. it's a circle rebuilding itself and reconstructing in an endless wheel. feelings and idea are always related, making each other up. none is superior than the other and none is inferior. your mind and morals are moved by your desire. desire makes mind. we all live in the mind, personality. we all live in our feelings. now you see how ridiculous it is to separate man from woman. our society has created an unbalance that wounds us all. Karma is consequence of personality, if personality is not then Karma is not - the spirit is set loose. Truth is that which does not depend on personality.

Drugs and geography – each culture has its own drug. Language got an impulse from shamanism; drugs induced a hallucinating state that the shaman felt an impulse to describe. It’s credible to think that the shaman tried to express to others what he saw and felt by using symbols to which sounds were attached, and vice-versa. Until today the usage of drugs is an inspiration to the deluded mystic in us. However, just like words drugs can’t release you. A word is a problem and it constitutes a danger in itself; we can prevent many disagreements if we keep that in mind.
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The Fire Quest was not only a change in itself but produced a kind of metamorphosis. First approaching the fire, then learning to preserve it, producing and take control. Fire became weapon, tool, and knowledge. No wonder the blazing fire soon became the object of veneration igniting human imagination with many incandescent flaming deities.
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Many of life's difficulties and conflicts stem from our frustration in not knowing but the real issue is in the overrated importance we give to knowing. There is no sense in knowing if one can't understand it; knowing is about the mind but understanding comes from the heart. If one remains attached to the mind and demands everything from the mind then frustration will continue forever, because the mind is limited to the brain and it can't go beyond it. Whereas life and the universe go farer beyond the mind. The mind is very limited, there are no hidden powers of the mind to explore, those mysterious and incredible powers are the powers of no-mind. Therefore no matter how consigned, ordained and consecrated certain philosophies are one must have the courage to expose their lies and bring them to an end. If tradition kills then tradition must die.
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It's credible to assume that sociability is a female legacy whose origins are tightly tied to the event of love and the condition of motherhood. Love and birth were worshipped and reverently represented in Art through the woman and her body.
We were taught in school that the basic difference between humans and animals is language however that's not the issue. The issue begins with Art. The creative expression is the first symbolic process and the first language, it is born of feeling and ultimately of consciousness. Sex was our first act of communication, the instinct communication promoted by sexuality, this includes caressing, cleaning the hair, kissing, posture and facial expression. All of it accompanied by sound, sound is there from the beginning, it is as old as sex. Then, the more complex the feelings become the helpless the heart feels, and when a heart feels helpless the mind comes in. It is very simple, there was no factor, no happening, no event, no discovery that made our cognitive processes evolve, it was simply feelings and its increasing complexity in the vast panorama of human relations and human/nature relations. The sophistication of feelings demands for all the means of expression: those at heart, those at hand and those at head. The use of symbols implies the use of mind and the thing that triggered mind was feelings. The feelings rule the mind like desire rules logic, and that's why the whole purpose of spiritual evolution and meditation is to master the mind by getting rid of desire. Gradually our emotions and intentions were replaced by what we know as symbols.
God is the energy we perceive but can't conceive; the Law that animals don't question because they can’t create questions.

To identify your feelings is very difficult because the mind gets in

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- but I didn't make any question

- the need for you is an illusion

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- or play

The argument of natural selection is almost mystical, it is clouded by the difficulty in defining "natural" and how natural works in the selection process. Scientists know that many species don't change for millions of years although their environment does in the passing of time. Generation after generation species resist evolutionary change and transformation until waves of change sweep stability aside, this pattern is called: punctuated equilibrium (pe) and it states that something more than natural selection is going on. But again, what is natural selection? PE suggests that the evolution of one species into another is not simply a matter of change acting at the level of genes but also at the higher level of interaction with the of eco-systems. It isn't just about mechanics or genetics - these are not enough to explain the history of life. «Punctuated Equilibrium is these periods of flocks which are culminations built up of stress on eco-systems and finally the the eco-system can't take it anymore and things just snap; like a domino falling down - some critical threshold is crossed and change occurs in avalanches - nothing and no one stands on his own». So is the knowledge of today evolving according to precedent studies.
Eco systems will degrade, lose a couple of species and the species who are eating them - sometimes the dynamic effect leads to extinction. This of course leads to a new theory of evolution which is co-evolution, man interacting species. Why do animals when competing display their weapons but very rarely actually fight? The reason is sociability as an instinct of survival. And sociability is a female thing, just like competition is a male thing. One can not exist without the other or else Nature can't be. However, the amount of sociability required for the whole thing to exist is greater than the level of competition. What is sociability? Sociability is motherhood. It is as simple. If all games contain the idea of death it's because all games are about competition. It is only logic that she who carries life can not carry death. This is why it shocks everybody when a mother harms her calf. The same feeling of shock isn't as strong if it's a male doing harm.

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