right?

WRONG!


it's the most idiotic thing I've ever heard

why would you meet Jim again one day if you lost your chance right here?

I have no friends
People don't really know who's who,
and who's behind the flesh
of your wife, your husband, your parents, yours kids...

you don't even know who is behind you!


You turned a memory into a circus
and yet you want again one day?

idiotic


as for fans,
the man shot himself.
and left a woman in total despair.
is this your hero?


I've never been the first in anything in my life
Everybody was always far ahead of me
even when you make it look like I was ahead of time,
I wasn't.
I was late actually

Finally it seems that I'm the first in something

and I hate myself for it

Come on guys
Time is running out for me and you

If you want that gig to happen you'll have to hurry

I want to be a mother


suddenly I feel that I'm finally dying, it's an amazing feeling.
who told you that dying happens when you're dead?
that's nonsense
every soul, on her own timing, goes through this process of deep change, inside.
and it doesn't happen when you're dead,
or else you couldn't feel it
or else you wouldn't know the tremendous joy that it brings,
getting rid of the old chains.

it is something that happens while you live
being reborn, anew,
the real death, the one that matters, the only death that really exists, it's not your body's death.
it's the patterns of behaviour, the patterns of a mind-set, the confused feelings of an uneducated heart that suddenly die and cease to exist.

when this moment happens you are reborn not because your body has died but because you feel reborn.
death is an illusion in many different ways
and there are many different kind of deaths


"The greatest mistake of humanity is to think that death is something finite - a final place. But this idea denies everything Nature often tells us. There's an incompatibility between evolution and the way we see death. In the west we think of death as the end, a "place" from where you will never leave. We have this misconception about death and it affects our lives in all levels. It affects what we do to ourselves, to our families, to others, in our job and as citizens of a society that live for excessive now believing that death is what death isn't: a definite and confined state from which there's no return. 
The Universe and Nature are infinite; death is part of Nature so death can't be finite. This is the greatest mistake of western society and it allows all sort of crimes and atrophies to take place. People have been cheated for thousands of years; who cheats? The lords of religion. They suck on you, replacing your spirituality with vain promises, taking you away from yourself and your pure essence, your communion with the whole. They persuade you to believe that faith brings salvation, and that's why death is presented to you as an end. Because that illusion gives them a place to fit in "salvation" and control it. The logic, or lack of it, runs against Nature. How can death be finite if everything is infinite? It makes no sense. The invented god needs death for himself as a possession, a weapon of retaliation, a triumph over humans. God is no longer loving and compassionate towards humans. God is humiliating us. The invented god needs death in these terms in order to exist as the all mighty feared by all. People can't tell reality anymore, or else they'd realize this can't be. It contradicts the basic principles of the Law: all is infinite. And if all is infinite neither death can be finite. Therefore death is not eternal but a part of eternity. Death is like a drug: it's here and it's gone. The effect doesn't last forever, it's a frequency our souls tune in and then switch off.  
The world would be a better place if death wasn't forever. Not only because it's false but because it isn't right. Nature is infinite while evolving, death is part of Nature so death can not be something still. Death is just as life: brief, infinite, moving. It repeats again and again - a cycle, a circle. Death won't last forever and this is logical. Death is like a passage, a bridge linking two banks of a river. It's like going from one bank to another - to be reborn. Now you not only have a view from each river bank, the bridge gives you the opportunity to be above the river contemplating a new landscape with a new perspective.
Who created God? Most certainly the first woman and the first man - cave skins, two million years ago. Once the mind goes wondering about what's beyond, about the self, God is created. God is the Rule; God is the question; God is the answer; God is an invocation; God is that which makes us feel small; God is that which makes us feel high; God is how; God is why. God is doubt. 
When we don't understand something, we suffer. When we can't understand we suffer even more. And it's us we are not giving a chance to understand. In order to understand ourselves we need to feel our Existence. The problem for the individual (as a child) is that the understanding of Existence can only happen in peaceful and loving surroundings. Our society is not like that; our families are not like that; our job is not like that. Society doesn't want you to be sensitive or give voice to your feelings because society need slaves, bankers, police, mafias, lobbies, soldiers. Sensitivity is not welcome, woman is not welcome. Woman is rejected in society because of her sensitivity. You are not allowed to feel.

No-matter and matter are the two sides of a coin of which Nature consists. When we die matter is freed. Matter is what tricks the understanding of everything, it's a probation for the mind; like a puzzle whose pieces must be found and put together - the goal is self mastery. When all doubts end serenity comes. When we die our minds are clean from the judgments and passions of matter. When we are born we are tied to matter again; it's a spinning wheel, it never stops. Some people who experienced coma described something like a light, a warmth, a feeling as if suddenly they understood everything and "knew" all the answers. Yet they haven't been able to describe it clearly in words, the mind seems unable to explain. That's because what these people experience it's not a knowing, it's consciousness. And that's why they can't describe it, they find no words to it because words can not express the whole of consciousness. Matter is what the soul fears and only from matter we can escape temporarily. When the soul can't feel the body and the body only responds mechanically, without joy, the soul is in darkness, feeling dull. And that's because it is disintegrated from the body. As problems with matter increase (different kinds of matter) the self is unable to make co-exist heart and matter. Suddenly there is an enormous cleavage making it impossible for the person to go peacefully with himself. When soul and reality can't co-exist, the christian tendency is to sacrifice matter (you have sacrificed it forever until the next). And this is not about accepting defeat, it's about consolation in feeling, being miserable, lost. Christians don't usually call to the overcoming powers of the mind, which is no-mind, instead they despise matter when matter reveals itself incompatible with christian morality. 
Postponing only makes it harder. Then one day it starts to heal, from an excessive need of matter, whether in its sexual form or other mundane activities, to the cool complacence of "chastity". It's the soul trying to regain its balance in the body, like nature when she prepares to "repair" something. 
Pure energy is infinite, our souls are part of this energy. But what is Soul? What's the difference between soul and personality? The concept of personality is attached to a context. The soul is not. The soul is attached to itself. It's a word that takes us to what's immaterial - that's why it's such a difficult presence to define. The christian misunderstanding of the body in its tight harmony with the soul, has led us to disdain the body to an extent that impoverishes ourselves and ruins our sexuality - which has become a construction of the personality rather than an act of sharing, an act of friendliness. The mind is the brain of the soul, if you stuff it with "medication" then it is no longer yours but the doctor's, the priest's, the psychologist's. It is no longer pure but full of crap. You are thus possessed by what someone else has imposed on you. Society helps you with a personality, not with your soul. 

Following the greatest mistake comes Jah. But how can we tell it's really Jah and not some criminal wacko or deluded seeker? Christianity's concept of a messiah greets all of them who are thirsty for power and consumed by the desire to take god's reins in their hands. It's the precedence for all kinds of ill speculation. Anyone can be Jah. The greatest mistake of humanity, all those lies about death, forced the religious power, emperors, counselors and cardinals to elaborate a belief system that connects the dead and the living by giving us Jah. And Jah is not only a promise to return, it is also a promise of fair judgment. It was meant to be a compensation, a compensation for nothing to hold but faith. It was always a bait. Jah is our compensation for the blessing of living just once (sounds funny). Jah is the pride of those whose lives are miserable and pitiful. It's an insurance of eternity somewhere in the future while we die and go to a place from where we shall never leave. So it's the human condition that's dependant on Jah. Jah is man's creation to manipulate man. Those who do should be in jail but they also fit in the circus.  
Eastern thought and philosophy make the West sound pathetic. We don't even think God, we have mystified god with that same mentality of Homo Habilis or the Maya. In the West our understanding of life, death and divinity is partially based on superstition and imagination rather than observed knowledge serving honest thinking. The West is too compromised in its decadence and spiritual void to be interested in thinking God using the tools our empirical knowledge has given us. We could spare ourselves and our children so much pain and yet we don't. The institutions we have built are more important than our own happiness.  
We are pathetic in our superstitions, prophesies, fables, testaments and other spiritual hoaxes which serve the interests of a few, of course. The West has remained primitive in its spirituality, imprisoned in it as the price to pay for all the avant garde rest: science, technology, progress. The western views on life and death are projections of human imaginative ignorance. When it comes to God we are still living in the age of caves; and this provokes a tremendous unbalance. The necessity to define God is an illusion, we don't need it. In the East when they "think" God at least they do it well. In the West god is either mystified or denied. The reason for such dishonesty is still the same: money, the illusion of power. 

The transmigration of the soul, reincarnation, is nothing extraordinary or bizarre. It is just Nature. It obeys the same principles we observe in Nature and its only extraordinariness is Nature itself. Our energy is permanently recycled, it never disappears. And when this sun won't shine anymore there are plenty of earths to choose from. Our communion with the whole is the whole, therefore the whole is us. This is Human Divinity. Our sense of separateness is just an illusion engendered by the mundane preoccupations of the mind. One life chance experience is too scarce to come to meet life in its joyfulness. However, the real issue is that it's simply impossible for Nature and its Rule to remain unaltered, it would deny its meaning in evolution. Life can't escape this cycle, neither death. There are millions of people who don't have the luxury to sit by the computer and comfortably warm their ass on the velvet rocking chair. Millions of people starve to death and go through horrible pain, like war. Existence wouldn't exist if all those people were only born to suffer or born to nothing, without a chance to experience differently - evolve. In other words, we wouldn't be Soul. Existence is eternal change and chance. If evolution disappears life has no reason to go on. That's why life and death are two and the same, running after each other in eternal romancing.

We are talking of something that can be described as “always existing” - no end and no beginning, which is something difficult for us to conceive. We mustn't worry trying to. The reason is irrelevant in the face of evidence because evidence will give you a reason. It's not assertive to deny other forms of life and intelligence just because we can’t conceive it or explain. Thing/No-thing is the duality from which everything emanates; it's everywhere. In the West religion was never a path but a set of fabled facts in a narrative ordained to explain. However, explanation is not important in the religious experience. It shouldn’t be. We have distorted and misjudged religion giving it the mission to explain the world. We have promoted a belief system that leads to cultural poverty, illiteracy and ignorance. Religion should be seen as an experience rather than an explanation designed to stop questions. Doubt is essential to evolution. God is doubt. God is quest. Any belief system that stops quest is stopping God.

In the West the relation between the dead and the living is not only unhealthy but selfish. Since the West fancies death as finite, the dead appear to us mummified, like spiritual statues in the sky that are always there for us in times of need. The dead are no longer people but statues; and statues don't have soul. This is an act of selfishness inspired by a strong sense of possession; the souls of the dead are our property. In order for us to pray and talk to them, they must be eternally there for us. They don't have the right to move on. We need them there for our own consolation as intermediates between the living and God. Their energy is frozen in time and space. We deny our beloved dead their right to move on. We own the dead for our convenience. And because of this we cling to life even when life is asking us to be set free. The act of clinging to life at any cost is an useless effort that only brings more suffering. We must prepare ourselves to let the old give birth to the new.   
The greatest mistake of humanity is to believe in the illusion of death. Death is a trick to deceive those whose logic is unaware. Everything has its opposite but not Existence. Non existence does not exist. Just like the only thing which is stable is change. Change is perfect. Change is true. Existence is perfect. Existence is true. Existence is proved, non existence is not. Death proves Existence. Only what lives can die; what does not live can not die. That's why god can not truly die, god never lived. Because It is always. Death exists, it is part of Existence, and Existence is change. Death is a bluff of Existence - a joke, a laugh - to make Existence seem like everything else: imperfect. The disguise is perfect, the illusion is perfect, the Rule (or intelligence) is perfect. Therefore Existence is perfect. The different pictures people make of death vary from heaven to hell, the void and nothingness (none of which can be proved). But one thing is common in all them: the envision of death as something final (the end of existence). As we have previously concluded, the notion that death is final it's not in accordance with Nature's infinity while evolving. And since death is part of Nature, thus part of infinity, death can not be finite, steady. As proof of Existence death can not be something final but a part of Nature's infinity, and so death is also Existence. One could poetically say that death is the joke and the joker, the trick and the surprise provoked by Existence.

Laughter is a human quality. Where does it come from? If humans possess this quality, which is tightly linked to intelligence in the sense of rationalization, whatever energy that possesses intelligence also possesses laughter. All things from the realm of fantasy and dreams are coming into reality through a jackpot of coincidences. This magic child like world of imagination was created by man. No other energy created it but man. Yet, man doesn't immediately recognize it as his own, he doesn't recognize the potential within his own affairs. Any day now all that potential will suddenly meet and start moving, interacting, relating - and this provokes tensions within, it's chemical. Chemistry was the first science. It was there from the beginning in simple tasks like cooking and preserving food, or in elaborated tasks like the alchemy of drugs. The subject of drugs has been hardly mentioned in the study of human evolution and brain changes. But there has always been a link between the religious experience and the use of drugs. Back to basics, it is only funny that all this human potential is now laughing at us as if it gained life on its own. Not because it is extraordinary but because it is consequential.

You learn from your own decisions. Hell and Heaven is your own creation, and it's the mind that creates it. Do you want to know what death is? I tell you what death is. Death is a bridge; it's the passage between two banks of a river. Now you are here, now you are there. Imagine a drop, the drop is you. While you are a drop you are separated from the rest of the ocean because you have an identity, an ego, a personality. While you are this drop you are unique, you have individuality, you can be recognized, singled out. Each one of us is a drop - this is life. When you die you fall into the ocean - you stop being a drop and you merge with the other million drops that together form the ocean. You stop having a personality, an ego, you are no longer an individual, and you can't be singled out. You become part of the big ocean. But, just like water when it evaporates and it starts raining, you become a drop again. It's a cycle.

There is no heaven, no hell. Those are constructions of the mind. You have been deceived by priests for millennium! Religion was the first politics. Religion was the first law. That's why religion goes well with justice, they were born together. Take the Maya example, or the Romans, or the Hebrews, or the Christians, the rulers are tightly linked to the priests. Kings and priests, politics and religion, have always been together and working on each other's behalf. Monarchy itself says that the King, or Queen, or Emperor, is given power directly from god. What bullshit! Notice how your religions are stuffed with superstition. Ritual sacrifice is based on superstition, that's why it's fake, that's why it has nothing to do with the Law. The Law is a celebration, Beauty, Happiness. It has nothing to do with mortification or offerings to the gods. The Maya were absolutely cruel, horrendous. They were dominated by superstition; everything they did to please the gods was superstition. They didn't know a fuck about god.
Scientific or technological knowledge has nothing to do with being advanced. Look at our own society, we have science and technology but when it comes to affairs of the spirit we are still primitive, we still live in the caves. It's just like messiahnism - what a stupid arrogant construction of the mind. It's exactly because you made god at man's image, literally, that we have forgotten about Nature, the environment, the animals. We put human species too high on a pedestal; it's laughable. " - taken from "The Greatest mistake of Humanity" a short essay by ana ferreira



I feel almost dead and as soon as I'm dead I will be a mother
I want to be the new me in all its wholeness, which is full of wonderful possibilities

I'm still on time,
but first I must find Pam, my husband



- it's all right Sean, mom's baby will be a girl. you're dad's only boy

- dad, mom, I got to say that you're funny

- of course I am no eternal reward will forgive them now for wasting great fun